Lost and Forgettable
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As a day become a week, then a week become a month. Places and memories are still the same, unchanged. Yet, the only one that changed is people. People do changed in the way that they never realize. They only do the same thing until they realize that they are lost in the maze that they made. In fact, the maze has not only one way out, but a thousand. Some people might want to leave the maze, while the others decided to not to leave the maze. Thus people and maze are already united become one. In the end, there are no right or wrong answer about the choice that people made. It is all about them, who are you to judge?
In contrast for me, I realize that I need to runaway from the maze and finding myself once more. It is not an easy job to find yourself that has been too long lost in the place that is so familiar. For me, I start with recognizing things all over again, and arranging my heart and action towards everythings. Thus I start to find who I really am and what I need instead of what I want.
However there is one thing that is roaming around my mind which is I am scared to be the person who will soon be forgotten. I try to explain everything to myself, including reading the book called the fault in our stars by John green for countless time because of Augustus who has similar fear with me. Yet, then again I find the answer that all the people will be forgetten in a meantime. Only those who loved and keep you in their memories will always remember you in the way you never expected.
Is it the fate of immortal life?
I do not have the answer about that. One thing that I am trully sure is that I, myself, is finding who I am and not scared anymore.